Saturday, December 01, 2007

Sweet Talk


From now on I'm naming my blogs after whatever song I'm listening to.

So It's what you all want to hear about right?

Hmm...what do I do with my life...go to concerts! and that's it.

I went to a couple of concerts last week, Straylight Run and As I Lay Dying (within 3 days of each other). I kind of like how I listen to completely different bands haha. Straylight Run was pretty much amazing, it was gonna be me and Maddy and Britta, but then Britta decided not to go, so it was just Maddy and me. Britta, I wish you would've gone, but in a way, it was nice that you didn't haha (I love you I promise). It was at the Avalon and the opening bands were Cassino, Dear and the Headlights and The Color Fred. I suggest you check them all out, for sure. Cassino was more acoustic-driven and the music had more of a folky sound to it, I enjoyed it. Dear and the Headlights is definitely one of my favorite bands now, I bought the cd at the show and met the guitarist. If you're interested, I'll let you borrow the cd. The Color Fred is the used-to-be-guitarist-for-Taking-Back-Sunday's side project, and I'll tell you now, check it out cause it rocks. Maddy said they were her favorite band, so she bought the cd (and the packaging is very hippy approved btw) and as we were walking out we saw Fred standing there so she got him to sign the cd. It was awesome. One thing I liked about the concert a lot was that there was like 200 people there, so the whole performance felt really personal. Straylight Run even played a real encore, because they enjoyed the audience reaction and stuff. It was nice. One of the best moments: " this..." "like what?" ".....this"

wtf, right? well John Nolan was talking about some song and he said "and it goes a little something like this..." except the drummer wasn't quite ready to start it yet, so he kept saying it, and in the middle of it I said the "like what?" then he said the ".....this" and the song started. haha, it was a pretty special moment since John was smiling because of my comment.

There was one thing that made me chuckle at the concert quite a bit though, try not to get lost...

So there was this band named Taking Back Sunday. These two guys played guitar and bass for them, their names were John Nolan and Shaun Cooper. For some reason, they decided to split off and do their own thing, they called it Straylight Run. Some random guy replaced Shaun, but a guy named Fred replaced John. Fred played with Taking Back Sunday for a while, then earlier this year, he decided he wanted to do his own thing. So now he plays with his own band, the Color Fred. Both of the bands were at the concert...ha! (okay, so I'm just trying to take up space now)

The As I Lay Dying concert was pretty amazing too. It was at the Saltair, which is a cool place. All That Remains was there too, and I think I was looking forward to them more than AILD. Britta and Spiva went too, and that made things a lot better. Despite what you may think, Britta had lots of fun! haha. Nothing to special to mention about this concert, other than moshing, circle pit-ing and Britta headbanging. haha. awesome.

Now moving on..

hmm....recent events....well, It snowed a LOT today, which was nice. I enjoy the snow a lot, and I think I still would even if I didn't snowboard. I'll try to go snowboarding soon since the resorts are open now, but I've been sick all week, so maybe I'll hold off a little to not get horribly sick again.

Oh, so for of those who didn't know, I'm playing in drumline nowadays. I auditioned for quads quite randomly since I wanted to play bass drum in the first place. At auditions, all the basses were taken up, but there was a lonely set of quads sitting there, so I tried out for that. Turns out I made it haha. I like playing in the drumline, it's lots of fun, but the quads are dang heavy, which is pretty much the only downer.

So guess what I finally decided to do? Get a job! yay! Well, it was more of a chance thing really, since I hadn't really been looking anyway. Brianna was talking to me about how they needed more people to work at the Claim Jumper and I kind of off-handedly said I'd go work. So a couple of days later, she tells me to go and they'd hire me on the spot. So I did, and they did. I do some dishwashing and do some bussing every now and then, so as a result of that and drumline, I kind of have a schedule that I have to work around. Which is definitely a new thing for me.

Change can be nice sometimes though.


Friday, November 30, 2007

Coming soon...

a blog...yay!

in the meantime..


Saturday, October 13, 2007

Holy blog Batman...

dang Shakespeare..

Oh yes, haven't blogged in forever. Every night I find myself saying 'hey, maybe i should blog..' but I never do it. Until now I guess.

So the last few weeks have been quite interesting, lots of ups and downs. I've been to a couple of concerts since Muse: Jack's Mannequin, Smashing Pumpkins and Underoath, and after seeing Muse...nothing seems quite the same. Speaking of SP though, if you haven't heard, Billy Corgan was in Heber. haha, weird, eh? Chrystal saw him when she was working at the railroad. Apparently he was interested in riding the train...hmm...I was like a mile away from him probably haha. Dang. Well at least I saw him the next day.

School has been going alright, except for the frustrations of not being a U.S. Citizen. I was really hoping to go to SUU, but I can't since I am not eligible for financial aid or anything. Not even scholarships. So as a result of us having to pay college fully, I have to stick around here and go to UVSC(UVU), at least for a while(so don't worry Juniors and Sophomores of mine, I'll still be around...). Our residency should come soon enough though, we've been waiting for a while. When that happens, I'll be looking forward to transfering to SUU and getting the heck out of Heber. . . .

For two and a half days of the last week I decided not to talk at school. At first I didn't really know why, I guess I was inspired by Little Miss Sunshine, but just seeing how people's attention span toward you shortened like crazy, I decided to keep going just to watch how people acted differently (I really should be taking psychology). I mostly did a good job of not talking, although I did end up having to talk in a couple of classes, sadly enough. By Thursday though, Maddy convinced me to talk.

Speaking of which... :) (silly me)

So Underoath yesterday was my first concert by myself. I must say it was quite depressing because you're surrounded by people, but it just doesn't feel like it, you know? It ended up being quite short, maybe because it started an hour later than it said on the ticket. So I made it back to the Stomp, which was lame so Maddy and I left and hung out with Mike.

Well that's about all that's been going on as of late mostly, I really don't have any lyrics in mind for a blog right now.


P.S. youtube Flight of the Conchords. NOW.

Sunday, September 09, 2007


Life is...well...I'm not sure. School is going well though, I'm doing well in all my classes and I like pretty much all of them (except Math 1010, Warnick sucks, although he's pretty cool).

Well, Wednesday is the Muse concert and I am super excited. Jack's Mannequin is 2 days later and that will rock cause Straylight Run will be there. I'm kind of sad I'm not going to Modest Mouse though, but I guess I'll get another chance to see them. Hopefully.

Here's a Muse song that is kind of relevant in my life. Not literately, but you get the idea.

Muscle Museum - Muse

She had something to confess to
But you don’t have the time so
Look the other way
You will wait until it’s over
To reveal what you’d never shown her
Too little much too late

Too long trying to resist it
You’ve just gone and missed it
It’s escaped your world

Can you see that I am needing
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own

You all probably get what that is about.
That's about it for now, sorry for the lack of blog.


Sunday, August 19, 2007


I can't wait for it to be winter

So...summer comes to end. It was an interesting one to say the least. Tomorrow, I go to the first day of the rest of my life, as Britta put it. I'm actually kind of excited, even if it is school, and my senior year. In a way, it kind of sucks that I skipped a grade. haha. I wish I wasn't graduating, cause if at this time last year, I was as determined as I am, things would've turned out a lot better than they did grade-wise. Now I have a bunch of credits to make up if I want to graduate, plus get good grades in all my current classes. It's gonna be tough, but I'm sure I can do it. I will need everyone's help though to get through it, so everyone that is reading this, keep getting on my case about my grades please. pleasey please. (I use a lot of commas...)

We didn't do a lot of things we said we were going to do this summer, including the things I wasn't included in. How about all the stuff we say we're gonna do this school year and stuff, we actually take action and do? Okay, that sounds like a good idea. Everyone's gonna be busy with school, I know that, but it's not like it takes up every minute of everyday like everyone makes it seem like, if you really want time to do things, you have to find it.

One of the things everyone has to do is ski or snowboard! A lot of you are seniors and this is the last year to take advantage of cheap season passes. If you don't, you'll end up paying 500 dollars for a pass next year wishing you'd done it this year. We have to really take advantage of living here too, there really is a ton of stuff to do around these parts, but we never do any of it. I think everyone needs to live a little more.

Well, that's my ramble for now, most of you know this song, it's Tonight, Tonight by Smashing Pumpkins:

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave
without leaving a piece of youth

And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

The first verse is obviously talking about growing up, so it's rather appropriate. Then there's the part about the "city by the lake/the place where you were born", It's obviously talking about SLC cause a lot of you were born around the area. Then it reminds me a lot of finally going into senior year...*sigh*


Saturday, July 28, 2007


This will be a short one, just some recent happenings.

So guess what, iPhones freaking rule. Yeah, Britta and I went to the Apple store and played around with them...holy crap, amazingness, you should all go do it. That was whilst I was taking her on her first date :) I'd say I did at least okay haha, but I guess you should ask Britta about it. (and i finally got a Pumpkins shirt, you can also ask Britta about how i freaked out)

I just came home from the first hockey practice. Well...dry land practice. With Gritton being coach, it wasn't bad at all, despite all the running (which wasn't much at all really, I'm just a wuss). I'm pretty excited about it I'm hoping to take out some aggression so I don't become the cashier that kills everyone (watch Anger Management).

Well, just for length, here's another song, Someday by The Strokes (It makes me think of graduating and real life haha)

In many ways they'll miss the good old days
Someday, someday
Yeah it hurts to say but I want you to stay
Sometimes, sometimes
When we was young oh man did we have fun
Always, always
Promises they break before they're made
Sometimes, sometimes

Oh, my ex says im lacking in depth
I will do my best
You say you wanna stand by my side
Darling your head's not right
I see alone we stand together we fall apart
Yeah, I think I'll be alright
I'm working so I won't have to try so hard
Tables they turn sometimes.
Oh someday.
I ain't wasting no more time.

Trying, trying.

And now my fears, they come to me in threes
So high, sometimes
"fate my friend", you say the strangest things
I find, sometimes

Oh, My ex says i'm lacking in depth
Say I will try my best
You say you wanna stand by my side
Darling your head's not right
I see alone we stand together we fall apart
Yeah, I think I'll be alright
I'm working so I won't have to try so hard
Tables they turn sometimes.
Oh someday

I ain't wasting no more time


P freaking S
class schedule =
1. American gov - Wheatley
2. Physics - Turner
3. Band - Siggard
4. Debate - Distefano
5. Japanese 4 - Carlizle
6. Business Com. - Hatch
7. 3D graphics - Zabel
8. Math 1010 - Warnick

Saturday, July 14, 2007


Time to blog, eh? (my house and it's newfound green-ness ^^^^)

Well I've been a huge slacker with the blog as of late...I guess I have my phases cause I've been known to blog often too. hm.

So how's everyone's summer going so far? Mine is going alright thus far, I've done a lot of things I wanted to do.

I went to Warped Tour last week and it was a good time and like I say with everything else, everyone sucks for not coming. I think I say that way too often, don't you think? It was just Krystal and me going and I saw a couple of other people that I knew there. I think it was a pretty successful Warped year. I got to meet Aaron from Underoath and ask him how old he was when he recorded one of my favorite cd's. He was 17. My mouth basically dropped because the drumming on that album is amazing. I wore my "Free Hugs" shirt and got a good amount of hugs, most from guys haha. I enjoyed it though because hugs make people smile and they made me smile too and it was a good thing. Krystal and I stayed for the whole thing too, which marks the first time I have done so in the 3 that I've been to. It was definitely very tiring.

I've been hanging out with "family" (cause like none of them are directly related to me) lately because everyone came to visit for my cousin's Quinceañera. On Wednesday Joel, Sergio and I went to get the new Pumpkins cd (which is pretty freaking good) and got a bunch of sodas for the Quince. I realized I need to hang out with Joel more haha, and we're talking about jamming or starting a band when I get the drums back at my house (they're getting new heads put on to make them sound better).

Speaking of Quinceañera...that was yesterday and it was a blast. (info? scroll down to "Mexico") I had to a fully choreographed dance with the other ..guys...escorts...whatever they're called. Yeah. it was scary especially since we only had like 3 days to learn it all. But I guess we did good cause everyone clapped really loud and I was told it was good by several people. Everything was pretty sweet cause I got to dress up in a tux and look good. haha. I guess everyone's already heard about this anyways, so moving on. (if you haven't, ask me)

So I haven't been up to much lately, mostly just hanging out with people and working Tuesdays and Thursdays. Working has been good to me, I get payed well for doing construction, which is a little stressful sometimes, but it's worth it in the end when I buy all my concert tickets. Speaking of which, I got my ticket for the Smashing Pumpkins! I never ever thought I would be able to say that. ever. They're coming in September and I'm totally gonna be there. It's gonna be on a school day too so don't expect to see me in school that day, I'm gonna be in line, maybe even camp out. I'm hoping to see Muse that month too, but I have to get my ticket soon before they sell out. Underoath is coming in October with Maylene and the Sons of Disaster which I'm also very excited for. This fall is gonna be a good one for concerts.

I finally got a drum set at my house. The one that is usually found at Lurpe's house that I use to jam with him. yeah, that one. It sucked a lot up until recently when we put super good heads on it, now it sounds pretty dang good. Micah let me borrow his double bass pedal too so we're set there for the time being, i just need cymbals. lots of them.

Mike and I are starting a cover band, for the time being it looks like we're mostly just doing Muse and SP songs and stuff like that, which brings me to announce something, we're starting a DCFC tribute band! yep, me on drums, Mike on bass, Jeb and Britta on guitars/vocals, Morgan on keyboards and i guess we could have someone sing the whole time haha.

anyway, done with the weird announcements, here's a Smashing Pumpkins song for you, it's called Daphne Descends:

with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home

you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else

past sidewalk ashes
a last lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across the darkness in your room

you love him
you love him for youself
you love him and no one, no one else

and the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
you will lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else
you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist

you love him...


Monday, June 18, 2007


Britta is glaring at me right now for me to blog, so i think i'd better if i want to live. haha. So i have been kind of missing from the blog...wait no, make that the internet world, for the last while because my internet hasn't been working at my new house and i've been living there for like two weeks now. You would think that i would have died by now because of the lack of internet, but i've actually been fine without it. I pretty much stopped using MSN completely for a while beforehand, and that's basically all i did on the internet anyways. I have been missing out on a lot of music news though and i haven't been able to get tabs, but that's about all i miss.

I don't even know where to start with everything that's happened since the last time i blogged, band tour happened, school got over, summer started, and a lot of other things that maybe would go better unmentioned. I'm not exactly sure how i feel about life at this point, but i'm definitely going through a lot of change. Hannah wrote in her blog about growing up and that made me start to think a lot...a year from now i'm not even gonna be in high school anymore. That's kind of a scary thought. lame.

So our new house is pretty sweet, as most of you have seen. it's a nice change from living in a trailer.

and Microsoft should pay me for helping them advertise the Zune lol.

Wednesday Mike and I shall be holding a Star Wars marathon starting at 8 a.m. so whoever wants to come is certainly welcome to. No one is gonna expect you to stay for the whole thing, i doubt anyone besides Mike and me will be able to do that.

Now Britta is hassling me to get done with the blog, so here you FREAKING GO BRITTA.


Monday, April 30, 2007


(this is where i wish i was^^^)

so i'm gonna be like everyone else and do a remember when list, of recent things most likely, unless i happen to remember something awesome haha. don't be surprised if i mentioned some of the ones i did in my last one.

Remember when...

i showed up to prom and everyone was really confused?

you had to get me out of bed? you had quite a hard time haha

we sat on your roof talking about strange things that are hardly ever mentioned? you realized i was a deep thinker

we wrote that first song? everything just kind of clicked together and i knew we had the right people in the band at that point

it was only 3 days? it was short, but i was the happiest i had been in more than a year, everyday i wish i could be like that

i was your replacement date? it was the first time i got to know you and we had so much fun

you met my cousins when we were on a walk?

we went to that place two days in a row to throw rocks? those two days did more for me than anything has in pretty much any situation, and i'm very thankful that you were there to help

we came and not visited you?

all those little things happened on Sundays? still my favorite day, even if i rarely get it anymore

we realized you didn't have my phone number all this time?

you opened your iPod and i helped you get your music on it?

the little dog jumped on the love sac and you freaked out?

we realized that bands like to stalk us and write songs about our lives?

we'd pass notes in algebra? haha, it reminds me of things i never got to do before then

i shared that song with you? "this place is a prison...these people aren't your friends.." the perfect song for the perfect moment, and on shuffle too. weird.

we'd be lazy? i really liked that

you told me to choose where to go, then left elsewhere? i'm never choosing again

he ripped his pants open?

you threatened me with Anton?

we stayed up talking on the phone for so long? I still need to finish my life story

you told me a story about unicorns? i was smiling the entire time

you asked me to El Cheapo and i didn't even realize what was going on?

i walked you to your car?

i'd leave smiley faces on your calculator?

we went to her house and watched that movie? you freaked out and i had to carry you

they puked up the fake pastry?

it was your first day and you got a girl on your lap? that only would happen to you

we played GTA and ate all that food? what a lazy day

(this is mostly for me) that night in September? it was the worst day leading to the worst week of my life, but i know it helped me grow up a lot....i just wish it had happened some other way...i know i wouldn't be like i am in the sense that i might actually be content with life, because i haven't really gotten up from that. (if you don't know what i'm talking about, you can ask, just do it in person)

that's all for now..short, i know, but i was having a hard time remembering things, so i'll make another one sometime.


P.S. look at the elephant!!!!

Saturday, April 28, 2007


if you want a summary of my life right now, go listen to Mr. Brigthside, or sing it or something, i know you all know it. It's kind of weird how some songs are just written about you. Anyway, that will be all for now.


Wednesday, April 25, 2007


Hope is a strange thing. It can keep someone going and in the end it will all have been for nothing, or it will have been for everything the person wanted. It's kind of a curse, but it is far from it at the same time. yes, those are my own thoughts, just thought I'd share that with you.

So life is....I don't even know...Britta used a good word the other day, apathetic. that might be it, although leaning more towards the sad/depressed/hate the world side.

anyway, guess what?


I'm done caring. sorry people, I don't give a shit.


P.S. Orem sounds promising...

Thursday, April 19, 2007


we got the house! yes, the little house that everyone was so happy about weeeeee. i am so so so glad to say that we finally got a place to live. i'm really glad we got that house too, i got rather attached to it with my two visits. our agent called us today and told us that they accepted our offer and we just had to sign some papers then the process of it being ours would be under way. it could take as long as two weeks for us to be able to start moving in, but it's pretty much a sure thing now. for those of you who don't know, the house is just behind Maverick (and it has a loft) which means i'll be a lot closer to a lot of you, but further away to some. well, whenever you get the chance, come see me and i'll show you the house if you haven't already seen it, or if you want to see it again. haha. well that's that.

so...right now i feel that i should be a lot sadder, you should all know why by now, but i'm not really sad at all. it's a good sign really, but it doesn't mean my feelings have changed about anything, i guess i'm just barely accepting things how they are because i know it will never change. it's kind of depressing, but it's how life goes. i just wanna say that i really don't get why people do the things they do. love they call it, but i'm still trying to figure out what it all means...why does it make us do things in such a hurried manner? most people never even end up thinking about what they're doing, as i've already experience myself. the human brain is a strange thing, but the heart is even more so.

that's probably the best i've been able to get my feelings into words. holy crap, go Berto.

Love(haha...just when i got done talking about it),

Sunday, April 15, 2007


17 seconds of compassion

17 seconds of peace

17 seconds to remember love is the energy

behind which all is created

17 seconds to remember all that is good

17 seconds to forget all hurt and pain

17 seconds of faith

17 seconds to trust you again

17 seconds of radiance

17 seconds to send a prayer up

17 seconds is all you really need

i hate life

you know, i kind of wish i was moving somewhere else in a way.

No Love,

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Another song

i'm depressed, i wish i could write songs. pay special attention the the 3rd...paragraph

The End of Heartache
by Killswitch Engage

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors, mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting here) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

P.S. it's 1 AM and i have to take the ACT. i hate not being able to sleep.

Mellon Collie

did a Myspace blog instead of this for some reason, it's a short one.



P.S. comment here or there if you'd like. whatever works for you.

Thursday, March 29, 2007


I've had a couple of songs stuck in my head and I thought I'd share them with you. They're both Smashing Pumpkins songs (go figure).


I know
We're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel
That something has been lost

But please
You know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be perfect

Strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind
So far, I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was
Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please
You always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be perfect

Strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

You know this has to be
We always were so free
We promised that we'd be

-Jupiter's Lament-

Gone, long gone
Blink and I'll be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone
I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along
Without you

Gone, long gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn
Flee these mortal bonds

No one knows I can't be wrong
Still I sing the same old song
I tried to be strong
For you

Why have you left me
Amongst the tall trees?
I know I gave her all I had

And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
And bows

And I'm gone
Oh yes, I'm gone

And I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
And I'm gone
So gone
Long gone

yay Pumpkins.


P.S. all you piano people, figure out this song:

P.S.S. i hope you all know that i am not gonna blog until you all leave me a legitimate comment because no comments is telling me no one reads these, so why do them?

Sunday, March 25, 2007


so, life...yeah. a lot better, but i'll mention that later. i guess i'll blog my weekend out.

Friday was a normal crappy day at school, except a little less crappy because it was an odd day and we just watched a movie in Japanese, watched people play in band, Algebra was still crappy, and i just made fun of Ms. Beard the whole time in History, like usual. After school i went to work from 3 to 6 which was pretty crappy because there was nothing good to do, and when there's nothing good do to do, they have me sweep and stuff like that. lame. i got home from work and i called Mike so i picked him up and on the way to my house we saw Derek so we picked him up. we went to Day's which led to some stalking, but you can just ask me about that, then went to my house to watch Vieuphoria (which is amazing). Derek left after it was over and we headed over to the (black light) Stomp, which was pretty fun, both Corey and Lauren won in the elections! yes! i love being able to vote, something i wouldn't be able to do even if i was 18. Afterwards, i took Mike to visit his meth with Randi and me tagging along and we just kind of sat there until midnight 30 or so. haha. it's funny when people are sleepy.

Saturday i had to wake up early (10 haha) so i could go with my dad to a meeting about our trailer park. well as it turns out, the owner has already sold the property, so big box store or not, we have 3 months to move out, either leaving our trailer here, selling it, or taking it with us. the latter two being very unlikely. so we're on the search for somewhere to live, preferably within the valley, but maybe that wont even happen, which would lead us to move to Orem most likely. crappy, right? yeah, i'm not very excited either. after the stupid meeting (in which a guy ended up getting pissed, standing up, yelling some, flipping the guy off, and telling him to go fuck himself) we headed to Salt Lake to eat lunch with my family at a Mexican buffet to celebrate Sebastian (my nephew) being baptized into the church. it was way good. Karevi was there and brought her friend, Sarah, along and while we were there, i ended up getting told by Sarah that i reminded of Britta haha. i thought that was kind of interesting. We headed home after lunch and when i got home i saw that Mike had called me, so i called him back and he told me to go to Brady's. I got there and found Morgon and Jeb trying to run away, so i saved them and took Morgan home and we went to Erin's to watch Eragon. I took Jeb home cause she had to eat dinner and i called Kristen after that and she agreed to come with us to see TMNT, which was pretty amazing. we picked her up and headed over to the movie, and there was pretty much a Heber kids section, because a bunch of people from Heber showed up. that was pretty much Saturday, i just ended up going home when everyone else went and did something fun. can just ask about that, but let's just say, one of the best days ever. haha.


P.S. i'm only at 44 posts. haha. dang, i'm a slacker

Tuesday, March 20, 2007


i feel like crap. seriously. i'm kind of sick of this place, and mostly everyone here. it's really nothing that personal, i just really don't like how life is going right now and i kind of need to vent. i really would not rather say anything else, because apparently my feelings are hurtful. so i'll just shush. that's it.

P.S. if you guys want me to blog, i expect comments, otherwise there's no motivation.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Candy Mountain!

you know what? life is kind of at a low right now. end of term is always a stressing time, especially if you're like me and you're a slacker and have to make everything up. the Chemistry final is tomorrow and i'm pretty sure i'll fail the class if i don't do good, which i most likely wont. I have like a D in Japanese because i don't get anything we're doing at all, but i guess it would help if i did homework in the first place. My back STILL hurts from going snowboarding more than a week ago, and i'm pretty sure it's starting to get worse. maybe i should see a doctor about that. too bad there's no such thing in my family. yeah, other things are kind of getting me in a sad mood, but i'm not really gonna bother writing about them here, but i'm sure you all know what it might be about.

No Love,

P.S. so it was Half baked and what..? (just kidding hehe)

Sunday, March 11, 2007


i kind of want to talk to someone. anyone. about ANYTHING. but no one is freaking on, and it's too late to call yeah, here's a blog of random thoughts in my head for ya.

it's freaking 11 now thanks to daylight savings time which means i probably wont get to sleep until at least 2. great. less sleep for me.

hmm...i think i'm still gonna be anti-social, despite people's attempts to get me back into the world of...what are those things...oh yeah, 'friends'.

you know what i would really enjoy asking Jeb and Hannah? "so ummm....what kind of ice cream was it you wanted?" it would be such a good moment for oh so many reasons. one) the look on their faces. two) the reason why i would be giving them ice cream. three) i get some ice cream too. four) it would make me tremendously happy...yeah, i can probably come up with more, but i think that's good for now.

i really like having my license. with all the thinking that has been going on in my head, it's good to just get out of the house and drive around aimlessly just thinking and listening to music. it's kind of like..therapy. especially when you find these cool little spots where you can just park and think. it's great. especially when you have some food with you. i think that's the whole blog for now.

No Love,

Friday, March 09, 2007

Stupid thing..

so i kept trying to post the quiz that Randi did, but i was having problems, so i posted it in teh Myspace. link ------------>

still no love,

P.S. you're not getting ice cream!

Monday, March 05, 2007 says...

mis·an·thrope (mĭs'ən-thrōp', mĭz'-) Pronunciation Key
n. One who hates or mistrusts humankind.

i think that's what i am. don't expect to see me around for the next couple of days at least. unless i like you.

Love (what is that anyways?),

Sunday, March 04, 2007


I think this Sunday is worth blogging about. so here it goes.

My day started out with getting up at 7:30 go to snowboarding. one of the reasons i wanted to go is because snowboarding always gets my mind of things/lets me think about a lot of things. and i wanted to take pictures haha. I left here at around 8 and got to The Canyons at about 8:30, which is pretty early. I got a good parking spot and went up. i spent a couple hours on the Super Condor/Sun Peak side of the mountain, and the snow was fairly good, which made me want to hit some powder. so i headed over to 9990 and decided i would do some hiking, which i had never done before. the hike was short but surprisingly tiring, so i rested at the top for a little, taking some pictures and stuff (the picture ^^^ is of the gate before you go into the back country) and then crossed over into the uncharted territory..aka, the back country DUN DUN DUN. it was awesome, the powder was like knee deep, but it was kind of melty and i fell a couple times and had a hard time getting up because my hands would sink into the snow.

after the exhausting back country trip i decided it was time to go, so i got home and showered, and went and picked Randi up, cause i said we'd hang out. we drove around for a while and showed her 'the hill' and we went and visited Tyler and got some Day's Deli food. mmmm yummy. after that we went for another drive, this time around Midway, just talking about everything, which was a good thing, because i felt i needed to get a lot of things out to someone. and i'm pretty sure she felt the same, so yeah, good drive for us. our drive took us around Valley Hills and as we were coming down, we saw Erin, Mike, Derek and Britta standing on the Valley Hills sign, so we stopped. Derek came to the window and i totally agree with him that you implied getting food with him guys. gosh. so we took Derek to Wendy's and he bought himself some food and bought me and Randi frosties. While we were there, we decided to go to Derek's and play some drums (well that's why i wanted to go anyways haha) then we got tired of me playing drums, so we took all of Derek's change that he found and went and bought stuff in Smith's.

one thing i've realized is that whenever you don't want to remember something/someone, little things that remind you of them always come up. blah.

No Love, (a little more clear Hannah?)

....what Randi said.


so i got my license on Thursday and got to drive around. i still had to find the place where i would drive to for the first time with my license, so i asked Jennifer about it. well the next day she gave me directions to 'the hill' and told me she left something for me there. i was quite anxious to find out, so right after i got my license i went to 'wash my car' and got it. it was a box full of little things that reminded Jeb of me. awwww, it was the best thing ever, and now i have a cool story about my first time driving with my license haha. so thanks a lot Jeb, i owe you..something cool.

Friday i drove to school and almost couldn't stop at at stop sign because of the snow, almost hitting a car, but thank goodness i didn't. after school Mike, Tyler and i drove to Tyler's house to 'study japanese' and 'fix his printer' neither of which we got accomplished. we got bored and drove to Mike's house to drop off his stuff, but it turns out he couldn't go, so Ty and i went to Subway then headed for enano's to get ready for Kenny's partay. we showed up at Kenny's house and at some point lurpe started braiding my hair and Kenny's dad said something about it not 'being right' haha, i'm pretty sure he thinks we're freaks. we headed downstairs after 'surprising' Jimmy and watched Tyler and Jake do movie scenes with hammers. around 8 ish Mike and i left to pick up Sarah because we had promised her we would hang out with her (lets just say i was kind of anxious to leave). we drove to Smith's and played some tag, then she said she'd buy us frosties, so we went to Wendy's. we sat there and ate our vanilla frosties and talked about stuff, then we decided to go to the lake. we drove down there and just parked and stared at the lake/sky/stars and talked about life and how crazy and complicated it is. just one of those talks, you know? while we sat, Krystal texted Mike and told him that we should go to her house, so we did and hung out with her for a while, until Mike got a call and he realized he had stolen Jeb's keys haha. so we drove back to Kenny's house and gave them back so everyone could go home, and we drove up to 'point' (not following you Jeb). did some more sitting and talking there then i drove everyone home and went home. it was an alright Friday.

Saturday i woke up to Andrea (my little niece) nagging for some cartoons, so i spent most of my morning watching Spongebob and Jimmy Neutron. i showered then picked up Mike to go to the thrift store. he bought a Dave Matthews band shirt and some other german shirt haha. we went to the DK lounge after that and a Ranch burger each. mmm tasty. i had to go home at 2 so we could go eat in orem, but we didn't end up leaving until like freaking 4. i got back home and called people to see what they were doing. no one answered so i just sat around until i got a call from Randi that they were at En's watching a movie. so i went over there and like right when i got there we decided to go to Randi's house haha, so we get there and start watching the Prestige, which was an amazing movie that i really enjoyed(the following statements displays sadness for those who might be confused)...and i might have enjoyed it more if...well, i just wont say anything. the whole time i was just like....wanting to leave, but pretty much the movie kept me there. after a while, i could watch the movie without..thoughts in the back of my head(end of sadness), but i didn't get to finish it cause i had to go home.

Not Love,

P.S. you people should come support us band nerds at our concert on Tuesday. it's at the middle school and it's at 6:30 p.m.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

St. George

So the trip to St. George was fairly fun. Highlights: stopping at a gas station on the way down and loading up on food. stopping in Cedar and eating subway. getting there and finding out how warm it was. seeing a bunch of sweet cars, i swear everyone there has an awesome car. the girls winning their first game, then getting the rest of the day to do whatever we wanted. walking around St. George taking tons of random pictures and doing nothing. eating a Cafe Rio. playing Halo in the room. having everyone (including girls) in our room playing guitar hero. opening the door with people standing outside while Mike had his pants down and yelling "Mike's naked!". Fiesta fun center: racing the go karts. extreme putt putt. being a pimp. winning like 400 tickets. beating Micah at basketball. getting the extremely soft cuddly puppy awwww. "landom". Micah getting kicked out of the mall for putting Icy Hot on the toilet seat. getting Kingdom Hearts and Metal Gear Solid 2. Strawberry banana julius...mmmmm. making fun of trent. seeing Steven (mr. Siggard's son) running around in the street at midnight when bedtime was 11. "death!!!" like the whole time from Jimmy, man i love that kid. waking up to Muse. playing more and more Guitar Hero. stealing people's sun glasses and running around with them. cheerleaders yelling at us (not in a negative way) even though we're losers. walking around 10 pm in 62 degree weather. Zaz telling a girl he liked her hair and her walking away fairly fast. getting along with everyone great (except David the freaking retard and a couple of other people). taking pictures of Mike sleeping on the bus. the sunset.

yeah, pretty sweet trip if you ask me. and Mike. haha. not completely it, but you get the general idea. i hope band tour will be like this, cause it was great fun.

yaya blog.

Not Love,

Tuesday, February 20, 2007


I'm in such a weird mood...i mean i'm blogging when i just blogged like a week ago...weird, eh? i guess i don't really have much of a subject, so it'll be quite random.

You know what? i really like Zwan, and I'm rather disappointed that they're not together anymore, BUT Smashing Pumpkins getting back together pretty much makes up for that, even though who knows what they new stuff sounds like. I really hope that i will get to see them live, although I'll probably end up having to travel somewhere for it because almost no one comes to Utah. At least I'll have my license (a week from Thursday!) and i get the Jeep along with that too. yay.

Who knew playing drums could be so hard? oh yeah, i did. haha. i seem to be improving at quite a fast rate but i still don't get how some drummers do it cause they're so dang good. Maybe I'll get there some day with Postcards From Hell, but who knows, maybe I'll just stay this crappy lol.

I just noticed something...I'm the only guy out of the people that we hang out with that has a blog. go me i guess. haha, and yay for our awesome little group of bloggers.


So that's it for today, I'm thinking I'll do more blogs like this instead of cramming it all into a big one haha.


Tuesday, January 23, 2007


*(this blog has been redone like 5 times, hence the date on it, today is V-day[lame])*

I really haven't gotten many complaints about not blogging, which makes me wonder if you guys even miss me blogging. gosh. just kidding.

So tomorrow is Single Awareness day and I'm not particularly excited for it. It always just reminds me of my loneliness which isn't a fun thing. i was thinking about maybe sending some (1) cupid gram(s) to some (1) people (person), but i ended up not doing it mainly because it was kind of hard with people (her) sitting right there and because i just thought it best not to. (i wrote that yesterday so now i say it doesn't matter cause it wouldn't have made much of a difference anyways)

The Jack's Mannequin concert was last Thursday and Britta, Michael and I went since everyone else was lame and didn't go. That's okay though because they're the ones that missed an AMAZING concert, here's how it went: That day after school i went home with Mike and we waited around until 4 ish so we could walk down to Britta's to wait for her dad go get home and give us a ride. He finally got there and we were on our way to SLC for the concert. we got there at a pretty good time. the line was barely around the corner (for those of you that have been to In The Venue) and not into the street like Hellogoodbye was for you guys. They let Britta in just like that and searched Mike and me and we were in. As soon as we were in i went and bought Hannah a shirt (because she asked me to) and went and stood by the stage. Everything was all set up and we just waited about 10 minutes before what i thought was the sound check people came out. well it turned out to be the first opening band and they started playing right away, which made me pretty happy. everyone pretty much just stood around for the first couple of songs and started getting into it after a while. i remember the bassist/singer had a sweet blue bass with flowers on it and one of the guitarist had like a semi-hollow body telecaster. i didn't find out their name until later, which is Get Back Loretta, and i ended up liking them quite a bit. Next came The Audition (i didn't know any bands going except JM) and they were also quite good, as with Head Automatica...they were okay, but GBL ended up being my favorite of the 3. That's all i'll say for the concert because you probably will have heard everything from Britta by now..anyways moving on.

hmmm...random thought time: who the heck came up with the idea for those kiss cupid grams? if you liked someone why would you want them to be kissed by someone else?

I got a digital camera which I'm pretty excited about cause now I'll be able to take cool pictures and the such. I'm particularly excited about taking it with me when i go snowboarding, some of the views up there are absolutely amazing and i can't wait to show people that don't get the chance to go up there.

random thought 2: I think it's kind of a waste for people, especially students, living in northern Utah to not go snowboarding/skiing at least once. i mean come on people, we have the greatest snow on earth, why not take advantage of it? a lot of these people that didn't do it during their youth might end up doing it later and paying tons more for the same experience you could've payed hundreds less for. makes sense, doesn't it?

The Dragonforce/Killswitch Engage/Chimaira show is coming up and i'm dang excited for it. This one wont be a giant spoonfest though, i'll probably end up breaking something. Sound stupid? yeah it is, but it's amazingly fun to go to a show like that lol.

i think that may be it for now.


P.S. I get my license in two weeks!!! yay!

Friday, January 05, 2007


yeah, copying Hannah's post yet again, well here's a bunch of lyrics for you, and yes, there will be a lot of pumpkins (some explicit content might follow, ye have been warned):

" If We're the flagship of peace and prosperity
We're taking on water and about to f***ing sink
No one seems to notice, No one even blinks
The crew left the passengers to die under the sea"
- (the) Rise Against (that no one knows)

"Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company"
- The Postal Service

"Witness the man who raves at the wall
Making the shape of his question to Heaven
Whether the sun will fall in the evening
Will he remember the lesson of giving
Set the controls for the heart of the sun"
- Pink Floyd

"Our knives say "we're making way for this, the ending."
Stay back, turmoil is across-the-board.
It is making way for... a gaping tear is opening.
This, this is our last broadcast.

We're wrecklessly looking for the truth,
And we'll tear this place apart.
Theres hope for us yet.

Hope is there."
- Norma Jean

"If you choose to pull the trigger,
Should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere
Far away from here"
- A Perfect Circle

"Numb and broken,
Here I stand alone,
Wondering what were
The last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way
To turn back time,
Can I turn back time?"
- Killswitch Engage

"The sound of love is oceans far away
And I can love and I can check your faith
The sound that beckons me is from your heart
And I can't begin to say cause I don't really know
Just where I've been
every desire
my heart gives in"
- James Iha

"Oh maybe, we were made
We were made for each other
Ahh, is it possible for the
World to look this way forever?"
- Jack's Mannequin

time for the pumpkins:

Stand Inside Your Love:
"You're everything that I want and ask for
You're all that I'd dreamed
Who wouldn't be the one you love?
Who wouldn't stand inside your love?"

In The Arms Of Sleep:
"sleep will not come to this tired body now
peace will not come to this lonely heart
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now"

Tonight, Tonight. had to put it all because i love it:
"Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of you
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, and believe , believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we're different.
Tonight, tonight, tonight
So bright
Tonight, tonight.
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, and believe, believe.
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, Tonight.
So bright tonight, tonight.
We’ll crucify the insincere tonight (Tonight)
We’ll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight (Tonight)
We’ll find a way to offer up the night tonight (Tonight)
The indescribable moments of your life (Tonight)
The impossible is possible tonight (Tonight)
Believe in me as I believe in you,
Tonight, tonight, tonight,

Daphne Descends:
"with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home"

Hello Kitty Kat:
" Love to love to love what you adore
I can give you anything, but please let me
Be your everything... please"

" Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Pick your pocket full of sorrow
Run away with me tomorrow

We'll try and ease the pain
Somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils

Jupiter's Lament:
" Gone, long gone
Blink and I'll be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone
I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along
Without you"

" I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When God sleeps in bliss"

" Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on

I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies

A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight

So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?"

That's it for now, and yeah, it's a lot, but they're all good. i really have nothing else to say (well, type).


Monday, January 01, 2007

The Year

this is the first song i listened to this year "The New Year" by Death Cab For Cutie:

so this is the new year.
and i don't feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutions

so everybody put your best suit or dress on
let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into one

i wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

there'd be no distance that could hold us back

so this is the new year
i thought it was quite fitting.

So 2006 is over and i really don't know how i feel about that. A lot of stuff happened, maybe some stuff that shouldn't have, and a lot of stuff i was hoping would happen, didn't, but that's mostly cause of me. and to quote another blog (Britta's): "Let's do everything that we weren't brave enough to do last year. Let's love without holding back. Let's think less about what other people think. Let's make every single day one to remember for the rest of our lives.
Well, here's to the new year. I'm not just going to sit here and hope that 2007 will be amazing. I'm going to make it happen. Are you up for it?" and to answer, Yes, i most definitely am.