All I know right now is that I need to type a blog. Problem: I have nothing to write! Let's see how this goes...
Well I get to go back to school tomorrow after Thanksgiving break...I don't know how you guys would feel about it, but I hate having a class at 7, it makes for pretty horrible Mondays.
Right now I'm listening to the title of my last blog by Underoath. You all should listen to it, I think it's a wonderful song (most of you would like it, I think). It's very moving to me, for some reason.
I'm pretty excited for the holidays to be here. After I've been through so much school, I kind of get sick of it and start slacking :) So I need a break so I can be motivated about school again.
Speaking of which, next semester should be fun because I have my very first Digital Media (my intended major) class! And I also made sure to have my first class start at 8:30.
Althought I'm sure I've told some of you, I'll be playing in the Lee Music concert on Friday. It would be fun for you guys to attend and watch me make faces as I play drums. haha. I'll also be singing a couple of songs, so that should be interesting. It's at 7 p.m. at the old Senior Citizen center (the one behind town hall).
I guess that's it for now.
P.S. Oh, and Desolate Earth :: The End Is Here is another good one by Underoath.
So I don't know if any of you remember, but since sometime last year, I've been making the titles of my blogs names of songs. So far, Underoath songs are dominating; they're always really interesting, and don't come from lyrics in the song. It makes me think of what they were thinking about when they came up with the title. Interesting, no?
Anyway, it is November and winter is biting at our ankles
I am SO excited.
Except for not being able to buy a pass to The Canyons because I don't have enough money for one.
But that does not mean that I will not be snowboarding this winter, I will definitely find a way (and probably go a couple of days to The Canyons as well, for those of you who want me to come).
Since I'm at Lee Music all the time, either filling in for Krystal or just hanging out, I'm playing drums on many songs in the Winter concert. It's on December 5th at the Old Senior Citizen Center so you all are more than welcome to come.
I guess I really have no more to say on the matter of my life at the moment. Be happy everyone, it's not hard.
Since then, I've found that I really like working with kids. It's kind of strange (to me), but I enjoy myself a lot. I've been doing a lot of things in regards to that.
A couple of weeks ago I attended the Mountain View Fellowship (which incidentally is in Heber, on your way to Park City) church and helped out with the kids' service there by playing drums. It's really exciting to be playing music and seeing the kids get way into it. After we're done with all the music, we help the kids do some sort of activity which is usually pretty fun.
At this church (it's actually in a huge house), I met a lady whose two kids really wanted to play drums and guitar, respectively. So I made a deal with her that I would teach them. And that was the whole deal :) They came over yesterday night and they learned the basics of each. The little drummer kid is 8 and the guitar-er is 10 or so. Drummers are cooler :p They'll be coming over every Tuesday for a lesson.
And lastly, I decided that I would volunteer at the middle school to help out with all the little niños that don't know how to speak English. I went and talked to Mr. Case and he seemed really excited about me even considering such a thing. I'm still expecting a call back from him, so i'll see how that goes. I might even get payed.
Which would solve the me trying to find a job problem. Yep, I still don't have a job. I know, I know, I'm a slacker. I've applied at...too many places too remember and I've asked around like crazy. I decided that I'm probably gonna seek a job in a place where people like me are more widely accepted (long haired, t-shirt wearers). Park City, most likely, but maybe even Provo. Of course, it'd have to pay really well for me to have to drive to Provo for it.
That's about all life has been as of late.
And everyone, listen to The Arcade Fire. They may remind you of: Modest Mouse, Interpol, Anathallo. They're pretty great. Listen to the title of this blog, which is one of my favorite songs by them.
In regards to the title, the new Underoath cd is frickin' great.
Well here goes a blog rant, cause I have nothing planned.
What have I been up to lately? Just school basically. I have classes M-T in the morning, so those occupy my time for a portion of the day. Especially English 2010 and History 1700.
I'm keeping up, but I could be doing better. But considering how my grades in high school were, it's quite an improvement.
Lately, I've been reading webcomics a lot. At the moment, I am currently keeping tabs on about 6 of them. Shows how much time I commit to other things besides sitting at the computer.
And I'm also slowly starting to slip back into the habit of playing video games in an addictive manner. And I really don't care about it, I mean, I've done it a lot, it's just that within the last year, I actually had things to do, and now I don't. It's proof, I guess?
I really don't know what to do with myself most of the time, I guess you could say. I usually get really anxious to want to do something and end up just walking/driving aimlessly. I haven't really made friends with anyone at the college at all, so woo for that, and I never get called to to stuff by my current friends. It's no fun.
And yes, I do call them, I don't just sit at home and expect people to call.
Keep in mind, I always sound like I'm complaining, but I'm really not. I'm just merely pointing out/informing you about things in my life.
P.S. After reflecting on the things I said, I sound just like I always have. That's true, but I really don't feel like I used to, which I see as a good thing. Lately (since like last year sometime), I've been really content with life in general, even if Maddy's not here/I don't have friends etc.. I think I've finally just found the joy of simply being able to live. :) It's great. (Kind of goes with the title).
P.P.S. I've been thinking I want to do my own comic cause I'm always walking around or something, and I'm like "Hey that'd be a funny comic" Of course it would be all about my weird observations. But it would be entertaining to try out, I think. What do you kids think, yes no?
Since I don't have a job and don't have school yet, my days have been pretty uneventful. I also feel terribly alone.
I fear for my college life. I visited Maddy in Cedar last Friday and got to see what that was like. A city full of new people and tons of activities planned. After I was coming home, I realized more and more that my college life would be nothing like that. No welcome weeks, get-to-know-each-other-gatherings, or anything like that. I'm gonna have like 15 people in all my classes, most of which will be way older than me (especially considering I'm 17). All the high school kids are kind of alienated from me cause I'm weird and old. It's an awkward stage to be at living in Heber City.
My days have mostly consisted of either being alone at my house, or wandering around Heber, also by myself. Little connection to other people, if any, is usually made during these wanderings.
Also, all my friends that are gone are busy getting adjusted to their new college life and meeting new people. This makes me feel further from them then they really are. Especially Maddy.
On top of this, I'm considering seeking psychological help because I'm close to certain that I have been affected by depression for way too long.
I haven't really done anything special lately. This past week I was incredibly busy with school seeing as it was the last week of the semester. I'm pretty sure I did well in both English and Psychology. I had to do a presentation on depression in Psychology and I got 98%. After that, we took the final and I felt pretty good about it, so I think my grade turned out well. Though I don't know for sure.
The last time the teacher told me, I had an A- in English and I turned all 3 papers she had us do for the last week in. It should be somewhere around there. So I know I'm good there.
Woohoo for me doing well in school for a change. haha.
What I'm not excited for is taking 13 credits of generals next semester. That's gonna be horrible. I will have little to no social life, but I guess that won't be that different from now.
So now I have 2 weeks of school-free summer. woo! What I need to occupy myself with in the meantime is finding a job. I quit the Claim Jumper some time ago, so yeah, I've been jobless for like 2 weeks? I'm having a really hard time motivating myself to find a new one, for some odd reason (:/).
My sister was here from Mexico for the last week and she just left this morning. I feel kind of bad because I was so busy with school I couldn't hang out much with them. I'm sure she wanted to see me more. Anyway, now that she's gone, my aunt's family from Vegas is coming later today and staying for a week or so. After that? My other sister is coming. Yeah, it's fun having family over sometimes, but that could be a little much. We'll see though.
Hopefully I get to see all those who are leaving before it happens. The way things have been going though, that will be a hard thing to do. Oh, and Madeline will be gone next week, and since I'm with her all the time, I won't have anything to do. Call to hang out.
So yeah, I am really bored. I've found myself doing this a lot lately. Most of the time, I have homework to occupy my time, but since my English teacher is going on vacation for the next week, and my Psychology teacher doesn't make us do anything, I am without an activity to entertain myself with. That's basically the only basis for this blog. Boredom.
I'm going to see The Dark Knight again today. For those of you who have not seen it, it's a really great movie. The Joker is my favorite part of the whole movie. Heath Ledger did an amazing job, that's for sure. I guess that's all I have to say about that. Is it a little messed up that I related to The Joker a lot?
Don't worry, I'm not gonna blow anything up or anything like that.
I ordered a bunch of new stuff for my drum set on Monday and it should be here on Friday. It's pretty exciting stuff. I'm gonna start practicing a lot more, especially as my set gets better. I'm hoping to be good enough to start doing studio work in the area. That would be the best. Of course, when I'm occupied with Postcards touring, I'll have to put that off to the side (ha).
Speaking of which, we're playing at the battle of the bands on Tuesday, so everyone should come support us! It starts at 7 at the fairgrounds and admission is 2 dollars. I know everyone is super broke, but I'm sure you could find that much money in your couch. It'd be great to see a bunch of you there cheering us on :)
Lately, I've really been into Daft Punk. Which is completely random, right? But I think it's great, haha. Their songs get stuck in my head really easily. Everyone should check them out, when you hear them, I'm sure you'll recognize them. Actually, I'm probably really behind on the Daft Punk bandwagon? I don't know. haha. Blame the Daft Hands video:
So I just avoided a lot of other homework by reading all of my blogs. Haha. It was interesting, to say the least. I do it every once in a while, and each time, it just makes me think. Of course that's gonna happen every time you visit your past.
I've changed a lot.
All in all though, I'm glad I'm moving on with my life, instead of sticking myself to things that aren't good for me. That's one thing I've learned from my experiences. Pretty logical, but apparently, I didn't think like that back then. ha.
And after having gone through high school, it's amazing to see how many things we said we'd do, but never did. I'm making a personal goal to stick to what I say. I get some pretty good ideas sometimes and it would be cool to go through with them. So yeah, when making a goal to be honest, include yourself in it, as well.
That kind of goes along with something that Ms. Brown told me that kind of stuck with me. She wrote the following in my yearbook "...I know you will do amazing things!....Conquer the world Berto!" It's kind of typical teacher talk, but I really think I can do something amazing with my life. At this point, I really have no idea what I could possibly do to accomplish such a goal, but I'm sure it'll come to me.
Anyway, I think that should clear my head enough to get busy on homework now.
So I don't really have much to say, but there is one interesting thing.
Today I was sitting around at home, doing pretty much nothing (I've been doing this a lot lately). I decided to start looking at all my concert ticket stubs and wondered how much money I've spent on concerts....well, I have attended 22 concerts, and I haven't paid for 3. Harry and the Potters, X96 Big Ass show 04 and the Symphony. I have paid for the other 19 concerts. The grand total for these 19 was $570.66.
Right? Haha. Well the thing is that I wouldn't really rather have anything else. I've loved all the concerts I've gone to. It's an amazing thing to say that I've seen as many bands as I have. I don't think anyone else I know could say a thing like that (except maybe Joel). But yeah, just thought I'd share that with you guys...maybe I'll try to remember all the bands I've seen for you guys in a later post. But for now, other thoughts.
So it's known that when everyone graduates and goes to college, everything changes, right? Well I wasn't expecting that much change until the actual school year started, you know? But right now, even though we're all still living in the same place, I feel really really distant from everyone. I feel like everyone might as well be going to college in some far away city. It's really weird, and it's not my favorite feeling. I'll try to do more on my part to try to hang out with people, so yeah, I'll call you kids more often. Although I feel like other people don't try....I mean, one day I called like 15 people (no joke) and a couple of them were busy with stuff, but the rest just plain didn't answer. I didn't receive like any call backs at all, except for two people, or so. But whatever, I'll just stop complaining, I guess :/
So college is going well, psychology sure is interesting. It's a quite a bit different from high school though, but I think that will help me to not slip back into my old habits. I've been doing everything so far, and it hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be, but then again, it's only 2 classes. ha.
English 1010 sure is a lot of writing, but that's about all it is. It doesn't take too much thought, just time. My teacher sure is silly though, I'll tell you that. And it doesn't help that there are only 3 kids in the class.
So the way I'm going, I'm hoping to get a bachelor's degree done by about the time I'm 20, or so. I must make much haste, considering every time a new school year starts, the state government considers making me pay out-of-state tuition, which would then keep me from school, since we're not that rich. Hooray, pushing people away from education! Go America!
And as Randi mentioned in her blog, I'm not always with my "lover" as some people might like to assume (and don't say that you don't assume that at least every once in a while). On the contrary, she's always busy with things and I usually sit at home doing next to nothing. Also, phones were meant for answering, please. And when that doesn't work, there's a nice list of people that have called so you can call them back. What a grand concept, no?
Sorry about sounding like a jerk about it, it's just frustrating. I do love you all.
Well. Just so everyone's aware, I shan't be going to San Diego anymore, due to immigration issues. Ask for an explanation if you must.
On the bright side of that, I won't be missing any of my college classes, that I'm excited for. One of them is Psychology and I'm looking forward to it a lot. It's always interested me a lot and this could determine if I want to do it for a living or not. We'll see how that goes. Side note: Amazon.com is your friend for college books. I got two for 20 dollars, shipping included. Yeah, upcoming college kids, Amazon is good for you and your wallet.
Another high note is me being here for Warped Tour. Woo! That'll bring my Warped Tour streak up to 4 years in a row. Woo again! I'll be driving down in my Jeep, so if anyone wants to go, give me a call or text or comment or something, and I'll make a place for you in my car. Although, like always, no one's gonna go.
So all in all, I really don't mind that I'm not going to San Diego that much.
Today is my 3rd year blog anniversary! Everyone should celebrate by going back and seeing what a silly kid Berto was! and how dang emo I was too. haha. Man, I was(am) a silly teenager. Funny thing is, my very first post was about missing Maddy, and I could probably do the same now. ha.
It's weird how things turn out, isn't it? There's no way I thought I'd ever have a chance with her, but here we are...
So here I am sitting at 1:22 a.m. on a fine Wednesday morning typing a blog! woo!
It's been almost 3 weeks since I graduated. I'm still not used to it at all, I always think, "oh, I'll be back in high school soon.." when I really won't be. None of it seems like I'm really done with it, that'll probably change once I'm in college, I guess. Which, for me, will be next week!
I decided/my sister told me to start college this summer with a couple of classes so I can get a move on with my education, seeing as my situation could change in a matter of days, depending. If I keep going at this rate, I'll probably have my Bachelor's in about 3 years or so...that's no breaks, though, but I think I could handle it. For the most part, I'm a pretty tolerant person, even when it comes to things like school. And actually, I'm really excited for college, despite me staying here for it. I have a feeling I'll do a lot better than in high school. A fresh start :).
Life has been good since graduation. Like I said before, I really don't feel any different, or like I'm part of "real life" yet, but I will soon. I haven't been up to much, except helping my dad out with stuff around the house and hanging out with people. The only complaint that I really have about life is the lack of seeing people! I haven't seen some people since graduation, and it's sad, really. They're people I should have seen by now, according to me. But yeah, I'll get over it, when I see them. I also miss all my friends that are in Europe. Hm.
I've been to a couple of concerts and played lots of drums, which has been going well. I almost feel like I'm stuck at the same skill level with drums though, I haven't really learned anything new lately...but something will come with time, if I keep at it.
The band (of the Postcards variety) is doing well. We've been trying to get our stuff in digital form so people can listen to it and take us at least a little more serious, but it's been hard. This past weekend though, we got the best recordings we've gotten thus far. We're gonna re-do them better this weekend, it'll be good. Note: It sucks when people aren't responsible about their job aka Tommy deciding he would forget about us and not show up.
In a couple of weeks, I'll be sitting in San Diego. I'm going with Maddy, Jake, and Jessica, which might be a bit weird, sharing a room with them, but I think we'll be fine. We're gonna be there for a week or so and I'm pretty excited. My cousin lives there as well and I'll try to contact him so he can maybe meet up with us and show us cool non-tourist things. Again, excited.
I guess that's about all that's been going on in my life as of late, I will try to blog in a more timely manner. It would be more encouraging if people actually read it though :).
I've been reading people's blog and I've been seeing how deep everyone gets sometimes. Whenever I sit at the computer and think of stuff to write, it's never something like that. Sometimes though, I'll be sitting around and have thoughts that amaze me, then never remember them. Oh well though, maybe I'll end up getting something interesting on here at one point or another.
So anyway, Jeb is at 250 blogs....what am I at? This one will be 68. haha. Seriously...and her blog is only about a month older than mine. Well way to go me.
In philosophy club we had a talk about whether people were born good or evil, then went one way or the other. If you really think about it, it's all environmental. There's no way you would've been the same if you were born in New York or something. Of course this is kind of obvious, but if you really start to think about it, it's a little more than that. By the way, you're all lame for not being in philosophy club.
Well my ramble might end here...with lyrics! Of the blog title. Which is a song by The Strokes. One of my favorites, for sure.
Ooooooooh Ooooh Ooooh Some people think they're always right Others are quiet and uptight Others they seem so very nice nice nice nice nice nice(oh-ho) Inside they might feel sad and wrong (oh no)
Twenty-nine different attributes Only seven that you like (uh oh ) Twenty ways to see the world Twenty ways to start a fight
Oh don't don't don't get up I can't see the sunshine I'll be waiting for you, baby Cause I'm through Sit me down Shut me up I'll calm down And I'll get along with you
Oh men don't notice what they got Women they think of that a lot... a thousand ways to please your man (oh-ho) and not even one requires a plan (I know)
And countless odd religions, too It doesn't matter which you choose (oh no) One stubborn way to turn your back (oh-ho) This I've tried and now refuse (oh-ho)
Oh don't don't don't get up I can't see the sunshine Oooooooh
I'll be waiting for you, baby Cause I'm through Sit me down Shut me up I'll calm down And I'll get along with you Alright
Shut me up Shut me up And I'll get along with you
The 3rd verse is my favorite. It sounds kind of odd without music, tis a good song.
P.S. this one is awesome, but it contains foul language, which, trust me, makes it better. http://xkcd.com/137/
So I don't think many of you know this, but I'm in a class called Basic Communications (not to be confused with Business Comm.). It's basically a "you failed english" class, to make up credits. Anyway, even though it's a class for failures, it's still quite fun and I learn some interesting things in there (although the teacher's jaw about dropped when I told her about my 32 ACT English score). Today in class, we learned what a memoir was, which is a story about a certain memory or someone's life as a whole, kind of like an autobiography. After that, she showed us a book full of six word memoirs called Not Quite What I Was Planning (A six word memoir in itself). Basically, it's a book full of people saying a whole event or part of their life in six words. It's a pretty interesting concept. Here are some examples:
-Waited too long to start living. -You could say I'm still bitter. -Two hours, one closet, true love. -Am I lost? Or just wandering? -Thirteen years......and still my heart weeps. -New Divorce, New Disease. New York. -A body fractured, a spirit whole. -Cancer came. Teaching ended. Learning began. -Wedding bands can easily come off. -Too much chemo. I'm a biohazard. -Catholic, gave it up for Lent. -Found God. Husband found girlfriend. Amen? -Chucking the lemons back at life. -Happily married, until the paternity test. -I still make coffee for two
So I think you get the idea now....and I made a few of my own, so here you go.
-Played video games. all my life -concerts are fun. school is ignored. -Matured early, people seek answers. cool. -not invited again? i don't mind -great American knowledge, still not citizen.
come up with your own! they're fun.
P.S. http://www.smithmag.net/sixwords/ the website for the book
So I've been reading a lot of comics. I found another webcomic called Dinousaur Comics and it's pretty hilarious. The guy uses the exact same picture every time, just different dialog. It's quite genius. Anyway, so my favorite thing about the comic is the second panel in each comic. It's usually really funny. Also, on the website, he has random lines from the second panel up at the top that change every time. Example of a comic (click to see whole thing + website):
let your mouse hover to see what the author has to say. Anyway, I got bored and copied a lot of the second panel sayings, which by themselves are pretty hilarious. Enjoy.
-or maybe he's travelled to the universe of the lesbians! -creepy: i love you so hard! -it seems i just had a snooze... and didn't lose! -hot? or just, in fact, kind of weird? -edgar allan poe! you are so needy. -*gasp* -pretzels in a lady's lap! -okay dudes and lesbians! getting a woman to like you is easy! -woo! i- think this is very symbolic for... something! -flappers! -apparently, you need a sausage to get on the moon! -okay! the first way is to draw attention to your hips! -i'll tell you how i became the prince of a town called bel-air! -okay, so gotham city is infected with zombies, right? -the devil! what are you doing here?! -that's it - i'll sell naked pictures of myself online! for profits! -can good exist without irish evil? some philosophers suspect it cannot! -why oh why did i make a joke about his mom? -t-rex and the devil star in: "abandonware adventures" -today is a good day i think for asking profound philosophical questions! -once upon a time: everything i have is mine, and mine alone! -hah! bawdy image issues! -shortly: everything's fine, cept you got no legs! shit! -resolution one: eat less chickens! -credit card fraud is a growing problem in today's society! -the chinese buffet! -for instance: these smart machines could make even smarter machines! -shakespeare prequels! -fine new sexy ladies! -fop is one of the rarest conditions known to medicine! -i'm worried that i'll grow up to be a fat dinosaur! -now, to convince my friends that i'm not coo-coo krazy! -my mighty body lies in shambles! -the word "bicurious"! -here are some simple sexy secrets to pleasing your man! -skateboarding out of a friggin' crashing helicopter! -having a shower is like admitting you get dirty! -i regret spilling a glass of ginger ale on an architect! -the shaft upon which the seat is mounted has become bent! -that girl with the brown hair sure is a "dish"! -i think i'm becoming racist against taxi drivers! -time to go and get some hearty man sleep! -at least i don't have to buy my friends! -a rare proposition! i propose a journey to the moon! -"oh yeah? well here in the real world, we don't get to rest for 32 bars!" -man! even god thinks i can't write an opera! -and with my new dance moves, i "tore up the dance floor"! -it's totally true, even if all the messages arrive unmolested! -motorcycle enthusiasts call cars "cages"! -zombie whales! -i wonder what things would be like if i were less uptight about carpets! -then, they go on the treasure hunt! -forget you, zach morris! -time to educate my peers... through the medium of incredibly true facts! -(second base in the sexually euphemistic sense, of course!) -smoochitis is when you have a medical case of the smooches!
Haha, I love it. and I love you if you took the time to read all of those. If you skipped it, go back, you probably won't be disappointed. Alright, I love you all.
P.S. Bill Nye comic in one of the earlier blogs, best ever.
Now introducing xkcd, one of my favorite comics. One will accompany every blog from now until I feel like not putting them on anymore. I think about my walking path all the time...haha. (I added some to earlier blogs too, if you're interested)
Man, life has been quite the busy. It kind of sucks...I still need to make up one whole year of Geography to graduate...I have like half a packet done and I need four. It's just too many things happening at once. I'm probably gonna have a nervous breakdown sometime soon.
Well happier note, more concerts coming up, including nerdy orchestra day. I'm way excited :)
Oh, and Enano and I are gonna get some footage of us shredding the gnar on Saturday and make a sweet movie out of it. It's gonna rock a lot
AND I only have like 2 more meat-less weeks. w00t!
P.S. I Love You.
P.P.S. ^^I've been listening to the Beatles a lot.
I am completely in love with Madeline. She just told me to write this, and then changed her mind, but too bad for her.
Neways, moving on.
I have way excited about concerts starting up again. There has been a big break with no good concerts for a while, but now there's gonna be a bunch again.
So Valentine's day seems much worse when you actually have someone that you totally have to get something. haha. I've been stressing a lot about what to get, but I can never come up with something good, and I'm not one to fall back on generic chocolates and flowers. I guess I'd better come up with something.
Bah, college is almost upon us Seniors and it's quite unnerving. I'm freaking out a little bit. I'm kind of glad I'm staying here, but kind of not at the same time. At least I'll be at everyone's hometown so they'll come back and I'll get to see everyone at least every once in a while. When you're all gone, come check back with me when you're here!