Thursday, March 29, 2007


I've had a couple of songs stuck in my head and I thought I'd share them with you. They're both Smashing Pumpkins songs (go figure).


I know
We're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel
That something has been lost

But please
You know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be perfect

Strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind
So far, I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was
Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please
You always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be perfect

Strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep

You know this has to be
We always were so free
We promised that we'd be

-Jupiter's Lament-

Gone, long gone
Blink and I'll be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone
I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along
Without you

Gone, long gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn
Flee these mortal bonds

No one knows I can't be wrong
Still I sing the same old song
I tried to be strong
For you

Why have you left me
Amongst the tall trees?
I know I gave her all I had

And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
And bows

And I'm gone
Oh yes, I'm gone

And I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
And I'm gone
So gone
Long gone

yay Pumpkins.


P.S. all you piano people, figure out this song:

P.S.S. i hope you all know that i am not gonna blog until you all leave me a legitimate comment because no comments is telling me no one reads these, so why do them?

Sunday, March 25, 2007


so, life...yeah. a lot better, but i'll mention that later. i guess i'll blog my weekend out.

Friday was a normal crappy day at school, except a little less crappy because it was an odd day and we just watched a movie in Japanese, watched people play in band, Algebra was still crappy, and i just made fun of Ms. Beard the whole time in History, like usual. After school i went to work from 3 to 6 which was pretty crappy because there was nothing good to do, and when there's nothing good do to do, they have me sweep and stuff like that. lame. i got home from work and i called Mike so i picked him up and on the way to my house we saw Derek so we picked him up. we went to Day's which led to some stalking, but you can just ask me about that, then went to my house to watch Vieuphoria (which is amazing). Derek left after it was over and we headed over to the (black light) Stomp, which was pretty fun, both Corey and Lauren won in the elections! yes! i love being able to vote, something i wouldn't be able to do even if i was 18. Afterwards, i took Mike to visit his meth with Randi and me tagging along and we just kind of sat there until midnight 30 or so. haha. it's funny when people are sleepy.

Saturday i had to wake up early (10 haha) so i could go with my dad to a meeting about our trailer park. well as it turns out, the owner has already sold the property, so big box store or not, we have 3 months to move out, either leaving our trailer here, selling it, or taking it with us. the latter two being very unlikely. so we're on the search for somewhere to live, preferably within the valley, but maybe that wont even happen, which would lead us to move to Orem most likely. crappy, right? yeah, i'm not very excited either. after the stupid meeting (in which a guy ended up getting pissed, standing up, yelling some, flipping the guy off, and telling him to go fuck himself) we headed to Salt Lake to eat lunch with my family at a Mexican buffet to celebrate Sebastian (my nephew) being baptized into the church. it was way good. Karevi was there and brought her friend, Sarah, along and while we were there, i ended up getting told by Sarah that i reminded of Britta haha. i thought that was kind of interesting. We headed home after lunch and when i got home i saw that Mike had called me, so i called him back and he told me to go to Brady's. I got there and found Morgon and Jeb trying to run away, so i saved them and took Morgan home and we went to Erin's to watch Eragon. I took Jeb home cause she had to eat dinner and i called Kristen after that and she agreed to come with us to see TMNT, which was pretty amazing. we picked her up and headed over to the movie, and there was pretty much a Heber kids section, because a bunch of people from Heber showed up. that was pretty much Saturday, i just ended up going home when everyone else went and did something fun. can just ask about that, but let's just say, one of the best days ever. haha.


P.S. i'm only at 44 posts. haha. dang, i'm a slacker

Tuesday, March 20, 2007


i feel like crap. seriously. i'm kind of sick of this place, and mostly everyone here. it's really nothing that personal, i just really don't like how life is going right now and i kind of need to vent. i really would not rather say anything else, because apparently my feelings are hurtful. so i'll just shush. that's it.

P.S. if you guys want me to blog, i expect comments, otherwise there's no motivation.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Candy Mountain!

you know what? life is kind of at a low right now. end of term is always a stressing time, especially if you're like me and you're a slacker and have to make everything up. the Chemistry final is tomorrow and i'm pretty sure i'll fail the class if i don't do good, which i most likely wont. I have like a D in Japanese because i don't get anything we're doing at all, but i guess it would help if i did homework in the first place. My back STILL hurts from going snowboarding more than a week ago, and i'm pretty sure it's starting to get worse. maybe i should see a doctor about that. too bad there's no such thing in my family. yeah, other things are kind of getting me in a sad mood, but i'm not really gonna bother writing about them here, but i'm sure you all know what it might be about.

No Love,

P.S. so it was Half baked and what..? (just kidding hehe)

Sunday, March 11, 2007


i kind of want to talk to someone. anyone. about ANYTHING. but no one is freaking on, and it's too late to call yeah, here's a blog of random thoughts in my head for ya.

it's freaking 11 now thanks to daylight savings time which means i probably wont get to sleep until at least 2. great. less sleep for me.

hmm...i think i'm still gonna be anti-social, despite people's attempts to get me back into the world of...what are those things...oh yeah, 'friends'.

you know what i would really enjoy asking Jeb and Hannah? "so ummm....what kind of ice cream was it you wanted?" it would be such a good moment for oh so many reasons. one) the look on their faces. two) the reason why i would be giving them ice cream. three) i get some ice cream too. four) it would make me tremendously happy...yeah, i can probably come up with more, but i think that's good for now.

i really like having my license. with all the thinking that has been going on in my head, it's good to just get out of the house and drive around aimlessly just thinking and listening to music. it's kind of like..therapy. especially when you find these cool little spots where you can just park and think. it's great. especially when you have some food with you. i think that's the whole blog for now.

No Love,

Friday, March 09, 2007

Stupid thing..

so i kept trying to post the quiz that Randi did, but i was having problems, so i posted it in teh Myspace. link ------------>

still no love,

P.S. you're not getting ice cream!

Monday, March 05, 2007 says...

mis·an·thrope (mĭs'ən-thrōp', mĭz'-) Pronunciation Key
n. One who hates or mistrusts humankind.

i think that's what i am. don't expect to see me around for the next couple of days at least. unless i like you.

Love (what is that anyways?),

Sunday, March 04, 2007


I think this Sunday is worth blogging about. so here it goes.

My day started out with getting up at 7:30 go to snowboarding. one of the reasons i wanted to go is because snowboarding always gets my mind of things/lets me think about a lot of things. and i wanted to take pictures haha. I left here at around 8 and got to The Canyons at about 8:30, which is pretty early. I got a good parking spot and went up. i spent a couple hours on the Super Condor/Sun Peak side of the mountain, and the snow was fairly good, which made me want to hit some powder. so i headed over to 9990 and decided i would do some hiking, which i had never done before. the hike was short but surprisingly tiring, so i rested at the top for a little, taking some pictures and stuff (the picture ^^^ is of the gate before you go into the back country) and then crossed over into the uncharted territory..aka, the back country DUN DUN DUN. it was awesome, the powder was like knee deep, but it was kind of melty and i fell a couple times and had a hard time getting up because my hands would sink into the snow.

after the exhausting back country trip i decided it was time to go, so i got home and showered, and went and picked Randi up, cause i said we'd hang out. we drove around for a while and showed her 'the hill' and we went and visited Tyler and got some Day's Deli food. mmmm yummy. after that we went for another drive, this time around Midway, just talking about everything, which was a good thing, because i felt i needed to get a lot of things out to someone. and i'm pretty sure she felt the same, so yeah, good drive for us. our drive took us around Valley Hills and as we were coming down, we saw Erin, Mike, Derek and Britta standing on the Valley Hills sign, so we stopped. Derek came to the window and i totally agree with him that you implied getting food with him guys. gosh. so we took Derek to Wendy's and he bought himself some food and bought me and Randi frosties. While we were there, we decided to go to Derek's and play some drums (well that's why i wanted to go anyways haha) then we got tired of me playing drums, so we took all of Derek's change that he found and went and bought stuff in Smith's.

one thing i've realized is that whenever you don't want to remember something/someone, little things that remind you of them always come up. blah.

No Love, (a little more clear Hannah?)

....what Randi said.


so i got my license on Thursday and got to drive around. i still had to find the place where i would drive to for the first time with my license, so i asked Jennifer about it. well the next day she gave me directions to 'the hill' and told me she left something for me there. i was quite anxious to find out, so right after i got my license i went to 'wash my car' and got it. it was a box full of little things that reminded Jeb of me. awwww, it was the best thing ever, and now i have a cool story about my first time driving with my license haha. so thanks a lot Jeb, i owe you..something cool.

Friday i drove to school and almost couldn't stop at at stop sign because of the snow, almost hitting a car, but thank goodness i didn't. after school Mike, Tyler and i drove to Tyler's house to 'study japanese' and 'fix his printer' neither of which we got accomplished. we got bored and drove to Mike's house to drop off his stuff, but it turns out he couldn't go, so Ty and i went to Subway then headed for enano's to get ready for Kenny's partay. we showed up at Kenny's house and at some point lurpe started braiding my hair and Kenny's dad said something about it not 'being right' haha, i'm pretty sure he thinks we're freaks. we headed downstairs after 'surprising' Jimmy and watched Tyler and Jake do movie scenes with hammers. around 8 ish Mike and i left to pick up Sarah because we had promised her we would hang out with her (lets just say i was kind of anxious to leave). we drove to Smith's and played some tag, then she said she'd buy us frosties, so we went to Wendy's. we sat there and ate our vanilla frosties and talked about stuff, then we decided to go to the lake. we drove down there and just parked and stared at the lake/sky/stars and talked about life and how crazy and complicated it is. just one of those talks, you know? while we sat, Krystal texted Mike and told him that we should go to her house, so we did and hung out with her for a while, until Mike got a call and he realized he had stolen Jeb's keys haha. so we drove back to Kenny's house and gave them back so everyone could go home, and we drove up to 'point' (not following you Jeb). did some more sitting and talking there then i drove everyone home and went home. it was an alright Friday.

Saturday i woke up to Andrea (my little niece) nagging for some cartoons, so i spent most of my morning watching Spongebob and Jimmy Neutron. i showered then picked up Mike to go to the thrift store. he bought a Dave Matthews band shirt and some other german shirt haha. we went to the DK lounge after that and a Ranch burger each. mmm tasty. i had to go home at 2 so we could go eat in orem, but we didn't end up leaving until like freaking 4. i got back home and called people to see what they were doing. no one answered so i just sat around until i got a call from Randi that they were at En's watching a movie. so i went over there and like right when i got there we decided to go to Randi's house haha, so we get there and start watching the Prestige, which was an amazing movie that i really enjoyed(the following statements displays sadness for those who might be confused)...and i might have enjoyed it more if...well, i just wont say anything. the whole time i was just like....wanting to leave, but pretty much the movie kept me there. after a while, i could watch the movie without..thoughts in the back of my head(end of sadness), but i didn't get to finish it cause i had to go home.

Not Love,

P.S. you people should come support us band nerds at our concert on Tuesday. it's at the middle school and it's at 6:30 p.m.