I miss...

i miss hanging out with people, i miss "my group", i miss being some 14 year old living in heber, i miss having somewhere to walk to, i miss not having to worry about school so much, i miss the old band days when we just sat around and did nothing, i miss summer, i miss liking someone, i miss being a video game nerd, i miss getting good grades, i miss being better at skateboarding, i miss 2nd grade, i miss the old me.....

A Message For Adrienne

random song

i tried so hard to be her day
but the night has already taken me away
shedding dreams under the maple tree
where i carved your name
nothing left, not even time
straight reads the line
his life had reached the end
wanting only to be loved by adrienne
letters explained his grief
but she would never read
his wrists would bleed
but she would never see
so he took his life at the age of 23
and she had always loved him
be he would never know
for she covered her love
like stars cover the sky
hiding her heart
fearing what he would find inside
years took her away
a widow she remained
holding him deep inside
wishing she too would die
time favors no one and if we wait
we too can fall in love
a second too late

A Message For Adrienne
by Underoath

Awesome song ^^^. so thanks for keeping me entertained hana and jen. lol but i still cant decide wether i like either of you yet....haha

Life in Heber

is horrible...hehe i still don't like anyone and various people want me to/are trying to find me a gf which is really weird since i didn't ask anyone for any of it. hey i'm not 14 anymore lol i think that a total of 3 people called to say happy b-day and i got two presents...which is the same i got for christmas except they were candy bars and burned cd's...woofreakinhoo well i really appreciate people for actually doing that though don't get me wrong. isnt sad that i didn't get anything else for christmas or my b-day???? jeez ima loser well at least 2 more people said happy birthday at school..oh yeah i also got an avenged sevenfold shirt duh i forgot lol that was the best gift lol. bye

christmas

well christmas day just passed..and it wasn't all that great. i got woken up by the phone and couldn't go back to sleep so then i ate some food and messed around with my mom's new phone. then i watched some tv for about 2 hours and i decided i was hungry so i went to get some food and there is nothing to eat at my house...NOTHING. then i tried walking around town finding something to eat but everything was closed. after that i got home and christian called me so i went to his house and had christmas dinner with his family which was really yummy. then they opened presents and we watched the 40 year old virgin, which was freakin hilarious. and now i'm sitting here typing, for those of you wondering, my family has dinner on christmas eve so i actually got two dinners haha. oh yeah presents. i got an ipod which some of you may have already seen, the movie big momma's house, and my sister wrote me a note that said i could choose any snowboard in any store and she would buy it for me..woohoo! i love snowboarding and that's awesome since my old snowboard is a POS and my bindings broke. and that's about all i got for x-mas. holy cow long blog you'd people's better put some good comments down. oh and by the way my strike is in motion and it is working ha. i hope you had a better christmas than mine!

-roberto

hmmm

woah i need a job...my parents have been paying for a whole bunch of stuff and i feel really guilty over it...and i need stuff my parent's wont buy lol. oh we bought a new car and it's flippin sweet! um that's about all that's been going on..oh and me going on strike with girls is working out pretty good, i haven't liked anyone at all! anywho c yal later

-roberto

I'm A Fake

This following poem is from the beginning of the song called I'm A Fake by The Used...i thought it was freakin awesome...excuse my language in this one


Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

much love,
roberto

Buried Myself Alive

holy crap....so much has been going on....OK so school hasn't been too bad so far, yeah high school is better than anything else bu you know school sucks anyways. and no one is writing in their blogs lol. well probably becuase of school. high school may be funner but it's a lot more work. but whatever....hmmmm let me come up with some good lyrics..............................ok got some:

you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that

with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer
nicer

Buried Myself Alive
by The Used

life isn't too good right now..........

Friday I'm In Love

oh yeah lyric time:
I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday I don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday I'm in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday I'm in love

dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's fridayI'm in love

Friday Im In Love
by the Cure

oh yeah help me remember today is a very special date(as in day not date)
and friday the ummmm 22? is very important too.